My blog turned one year old back in July. I didn’t do a post on that (even though I had planned to) because I got busy. I am ALWAYS busy. I am sure most of you are busy, too. I wanted to take a little time to reflect on some of my thoughts this past year.
This past year has been a good one. I attended my first natural hair event back in December. I met so many wonderful people since this blog began. I have also had some disagreements and misunderstandings and miscommunications that have caused some people to leave my life. While those events are always saddening, I know that people come into your life for a reason and for a season. I have prayed regarding those matters and hope that the people who left my life are blessed and have nothing but prosperity.
It’s funny how when things get cloudy you try so hard to clear the air. Sometimes you have to know when to give up fighting because no matter what you say or do, some people will only see what they want to and believe what they want.
But I digress…
Back to the good. This past year I celebrated 10 years of togetherness with my spouse and nine years of marriage. I am beyond ecstatic that in two days my oldest child will be eight. YES, eight years old. And going to 3rd grade.
When I looked at her the other day I thought to myself, “She will be 16 before I know it.” She is so smart and so beautiful and so unique. I pray that God guides me down the right paths to take as her mom as she grows and continues to change and become a bigger girl and no longer my ‘baby’.
This month my youngest will also be entering Kindergarten. This is causing me some heartache. She is my last child (unless God works some kind of miracle) and she is getting so big.
When she says some things I laugh and then say, “Where did she get that from?” I love that she still loves me. And I mean LOVES me. She wants hugs and kisses all the time and she still climbs in the bed with me and is next to me when I wake up even when she wasn’t in my bed when I fell asleep. She tells me she loves me all the time and is such a sweet spirit. Both of my girls are so wonderful but they are so different.
I learn about love from them. Their bond amazes me. I have sisters and brothers but all of my siblings are half-siblings. (I hate the term half-siblings, but that is the correct term) I say that to say that I didn’t live with them. I would see my sister and brother (my father’s other children) during the summers I had with my dad. My other sister (my mom’s other daughter) is 10 years younger than me. When I was 17 and in college, she was 7. So I have been pretty much not around her since she was a child. She is 24 now and I am 34 and we don’t see each other. We are all in different locations. My nieces and nephew and my children don’t see each other. (I think, for these reasons I dislike the trend of having children outside of marriage and by different men/women) But to each their own. Anyway, when I watch my children play with each other everyday and love on each other I am in AWE. They have a friendship and closeness that I wish I could have had with a sister. But by watching them I am learning about the meaning of unconditional love. They will have each other for life!!!
Love!! That is really what it is all about. I am focusing on love. Sometimes, I get side tracked and get angry and heated, but I ask God to get me back on track. I am focusing on the love of my husband and children and God of course. A few times I have been distracted about issues from my past and hurts that have yet to be rectified. But, I have come to realize I won’t get apologies from people who don’t feel that they have wronged me. So I am moving on and moving forward towards all the blessings in store for me.
This blog has been a blessing for me. Some of the posts this past year have revealed some things about my life that were hard for me to share. But I feel so great having done so anyway. I hope to share more and more in the coming years. I have so many ideas and thoughts that I pray come to pass and that you all will be there with me and for me to see them. I love you all so much for your support, encouragement and love. It means so much.
The last thing is thank you also for the support those of you have shown to Flor Bella Boutique. I NEVER imagined Flor Bella. I have to say that I love my husband so much for giving me the idea. It has blessed my life and more importantly, my children’s lives. Because of Flor Bella, my children want to learn to sew and become crafty and are able to do some extra curricular things that they were not able to do. I will touch on this more in a future post, but to any of you who have shared Flor Bella, purchased from Flor Bella, liked any of my pages I say THANK YOU. I will never be able to express what it means and the feeling of accomplishment I feel.
I hope all of you are overflowing with love.